So, after a few days away from the internet to think, I've made a decision - I'm restarting.
I'm making a new dA account, and in the process I'm completely trashing all of my current characters - which means I'll be holding a sale for them soon. I'm not sure how I'm going to price them just yet, but make sure to keep an eye for the journal.
I might take a few pieces of art here with me to the new account, but everything I don't take is going to be put into storage or deleted. I'm also not going to be posting vent art anymore unless it's actually something I spent more than 2 hours working on, and even then I might no post them. I'm going to stop expecting everyone to feel pity for me, and I'm going to stop pitying myself because my life isn't even that bad compared to a lot of other people out there. I'm also going to start opening commissions after I get my new account up, and guess what? I'm actually going to complete all of them even if it kills me.
(I really need the money haha)
I'm striving to be a completely different person, a BETTER person, and a better friend.
And about the chatlands, I'm still not sure if I'm going back there. All it does is cause me a lot of stress and drama, and honestly I'm not sure it's worth it. Ever since I've backed off from there and focused more on just dA, RP(not on the chatlands), and my art, I've actually started to feel a lot happier. I might get on there from time to time, but I most certainly be RPing any.
And speaking of RPing, I'm getting into group and forum RPs, so if you have suggestions for me, feel free to note me them.
On a quick note. I'd really, really like to say thank you to :iconbristletailbloodz: I know a lot of you guys(my friends) don't like her, and I respect your opinion. But I can't just completely ignore the fact that she has helped me A LOT. I broke down a while ago, and I felt empty and dead inside all the way through, but she didn't sugarcoat the situation or glorify me because it would make me feel better. She did what any good person would do, and she told me where it was I was fucking my life up and how to fix it.
There's always going to be things about you I'm not fond of, and things about me you won't be fond off. And we're always to going to fight off and on, but that's normal.
Thanks to all of my friends as well for getting me through this particularly bad time of my life, and I really hope the above message doesn't cause any issues between us.
To new beginnings<3